With everything seeming to be against her, Alanna chose to carry her pregnancy. Feeling alone and unsupported, she found a compassionate ear at the Pregnancy Care Centre. Be sure to check out the second part of her story, and how her child has spurred her on to succeed.
“I was 19 when I found out that I was pregnant. I didn’t know what to do. I was happy but I was nervous, I was scared. I was most scared of my mom – what she was going to say.
“When I first told my mom, she was not happy with me at all. It was really difficult because I know that I couldn’t expect her to be happy, but at the same time I was still expecting some comfort from my mom and she wasn’t talking to me for a little bit. She was pretty upset and I respected that because I know that I couldn’t expect her to be happy about the situation.
Why did you decide to carry your pregnancy?
“If I back up a little bit, I was raised Catholic. As soon as I found out that I was pregnant, one of the first thoughts that came into my mind was abortion. After the experience of finding out I was pregnant, I couldn’t bring myself to take that life away. For me to conceive (even though I was in this situation,) it was still a blessing.
“One of the thoughts I had after abortion was adoption. If I wasn’t in the right position to raise a child, that still does not mean that the child should not be able to experience life… experience what I experience, see was I have seen. That’s really what made me decide that I couldn’t take that from this child. Even if I won’t raise the child, the child should be able to experience the gifts of life. The gift of life –it’s a gift, not my decision to choose whether I get to end his life or not.
“You are naturally going to love the mother who gave birth to you. It was a challenge for me… I didn’t know where to turn. That’s pretty much how I ended up coming to the Pregnancy Care Centre. I needed to speak about my emotions and my feelings, what I would do…I really had absolutely no idea.
“It was definitely helpful to know that they are here to support you. There are not here to judge you or to point fingers. They are here to hear your story, and whatever your story is help you to get back on your feet. They help you to understand that it is not the end of the world – it is the beginning of the rest of your life. I was really glad that I found the Pregnancy Care Center, because if I didn’t, I don’t know what I would have done… I have no idea.”